I won’t say I’m not upset, because I am. I’m very upset, but I’m also really conflicted. We ran into a situation where people were being killed and injured for something that was likely not their fault, and most of my friends wanted to retreat to stay alive. What was I supposed to do, leave those poor people to die in the smashed temple?! Apparently so! But I didn’t. I stuck it out. Yes, Sophie took a lot of damage, but that was HER choice, and I can’t make her or stop her from doing anything.
They could have all walked away from the fight, but I wasn’t going to go anywhere. The new girl, Si’R or something like that, stayed too. At least I can trust she’ll help me save people who need saving. Not that I can’t trust the others… because I do! I do trust them, I’m just… upset.
NOT TO MENTION! I got my soul molested again. I HATE IT. I hate this, I hate fighting with my friends, and I hate feeling cold and violated.
I just want to go back to how it was when we were on the road, when we were at Brinewall. I want to talk to Nate in the trees and I want to gossip with Tallus in small taverns and I want to play with Kaleth in the woods. I want to get to know my friends. FRIENDS, something I’ve never had outside of Kaleth. And he’s… more like family. He’s all I’ve ever had, and now here I am, with all these great people, and…
I just want everything to be okay.